:DD

You're always there for me... 
i know
I'm always keeping me to myself...
i know


its nt that i dun wanna tell or anything...
its just...i'm afraid to tell... 
i will be fine... at least that's what i told myself...


i prefer... being alone
it makes me feel safe... makes me feel secure :) 
really... 


i know i've been keeping me away from all of u since... i'm born? 
i dunno... i'm just scared :(


no matter how i'm keeping myself from you guys... 
all of u is still my family... 
i'll still gif u a hug when you're down
stand by your side when you needed me
offer u help when you're helpless...
at times i needed... 

What i feel

i'm always cheerful in front of everyone
at least i tried to be... 


when i'm happy... i'm hyper
when i'm down... i'm emo
is tat what they think of me?
so... i'm easy to understand huh?


but... 
hu noes when their words hurt my feelings...
and i'm still trying hard to be cheerful...
hu noes when what they say makes me feel uncomfortable
and i'm keeping quiet, tellin them i'm bz... 


no one will... 


u dun understand me...
u dun...
dun act like you do
dun assume tat you do.. 


nah... i'll nt tell u tat u don
i will juz leaving u.. tellin ur own story..
what will i do? 
i'll just keeping quiet aside... smiling with u... laughing at ur dumbness... 

23rd Aug [my bday ]

Wanna noe how i gone thru the day? XD
well.... 
i'm too tired to wait for 12am... so .. i slept... 
of coz...i silent my fon first XD <<< smart rite? ;p


went school....
recess....
they bought me an Oreo Cheesecake !! 
OMG!! i was so shocked!! i love them !!! 
OREO CHEESEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~ <3 <3!!
then then then...
they sang bday song [should i describe it as "scream" instead of "sing" ?] XD


they scream so loud tat pn lee came over XD!!
i tot shes goin to scold us but she din... LOL!!


btw... our custom? lol.... 
gotta bite out the candle ... XD
:)
well.... its quite fun 
Thanks guys.. u'll are the best 

20th Aug... [ytd]

too tired to renew my blog ytd... XD


well..20th is Eugenie's bday.. 
bt went to wan chi's hse for the belated bday party 
Had a lot of fun...


Dare n double dare agn...
been dared to kiss Wan ying XD... lol.. kiss oni lorrrr ;p


oh oh oh!!! went to playground too.. played see-saw and swinGGGGGGGGGG!!!
i love swings XD


food food food...
wan chi.. pls DO remind me to bring 2 stomach when i go to ur hse... 
the food roxxxx... and so is the hse deco... super nice.. comfortable :)


love her... i ate famous amos toooooo XD
nice celebration :)

:) 17 August

Joe Wei's bday :)
Went to her plc to celebrate 
LOL


play Dare or dare instead of true or dare XD
quite fun actually....
i've been dare to say "i love u" to someone... LOL
i juz... feel nothing?
just walk there.. n ... "i love u"...
then walk bak... XD


i think tat girl look at me as if i'm a weirdo or something ba... :P
urghh.. hu cares...
LOL... 
the fun part... usin jia yi's fon... playin her around...
her reaction was the funny thing XD


XD... 

countdown .... [jw's b'day]

previous day,
mummy bought me a watch as my bday present... <3 it ! 

and and and... skipped ttn... XD
and u noe wad? i told mum laz minute... lol.. few hours before headin to Fairies
celebrating Jw 's bday
she asked me to sleepover at her place...but...
i told her laz minute and wanna change my plan agn? she'll kill me for tat


Went at arnd 8... She saw the cake [was plannin to surprise her ... plan failed ]
Everyone came... 
dunno do wad crap... time flies like super fast
mum messaged me ask me nt to go home so late at around 10... but i din c it =3=


lastly... left me,eve,jil,jw n swi yin... 
Lol... prankin ppl...
tats the best part of today... 
Funneyyyyy...  XD


jw's dad come at around 12 something.... 
i was like... woah... mum actually din rush me for this time... maybe she slept or something... XD
Arghhh... nvm then... XD
reach home.... its alrd nearly 1.... :)


Tired... still went on9... ;p ... 


Btw... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE WEI..... xD

Here comes August...

Late for saying this but.. still... HI AUGUST!! <3 
the month i loved the most... XD


hmmm... the month tat i'll spend a lot :( 


well... as far as i could rmb... Theres quite a lot to spend on... 
Goin celebrate joe wei's moro... 
or should i use "countdown" instead of celebrate? 
Lol... 
Wadeva... XD... still havin a little celebration...


Grrrr... gotta skip ttn to get there :( 
u're so lucky to hav me skippin ttn for u XD


.... 
Btw... i bet they'll be playin till late nite...
and i guess my mum will call me like mad XD
Hu cares  ... imma hav fun 

~~~~

Another boring sunday... 
Raining...
Storming...
no more sun hanging on the sky
no more bright rays shining on me


Streets are empty
leaving the rain to pour 


it may be a relief to ppl... 
as sun is finally away
letting rain to cool down the earth


hu noes if the sky is actually cryin
as human dun appreciate anything it done...
when it shines... 
human complaint tat its hot
when it pours
human complaint tat its freezing


Why can't we just b happy for wad we hav~ 

i don't need u... 
i really don't...
i don't need your approvement
so is your encouragement
All i need is my confidence towards my own
All i want is my own approvement


i did all tat stuff
just bcoz i want it do be done
and i want it to be perfect 
in my own way


i dun care whether you're here for me
or whether you're always stand by me
i'd rmb i told u b4.... tat ... 
 MY OWN WORLD IS ONLY FOR THE SAKE OF MYSELF
i dun hav the place to care for others
or the heart to think for you 


Anyone can betray
Anyone is untrustable... 


Keep it to myself and everything will be alright :)

;p

nearly forgotten bout this place agn.... ;p
Forgive me , Blog... 
at least i rmbered my password for this time... rite? Zzzz


人，
还是靠自己比较好
至少，
未来某一天，回想起现在，
会觉得自己不是没用的
至少会觉得，
自己曾为自己奋斗过


我也知道
现在所经历的
不论是 悲伤，痛苦，愤怒，或是 开心
都会是我以后珍藏的记忆
而这些记忆
都会伴随着我
直到生命划上一个完美的句点。


要活出色彩
你以为很容易吗？
对我来说
只要与朋友们一起走下去
一起度过每段时刻
一起分享喜悦
一起感受悲伤
一起撑过困苦时刻
就已经足够了
……